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Published by Jeff
on Friday, June 01, 2007 at 3:40 PM. 
Prerequisite: Beginnings
Somewhere around high school, I drifted from my belief in God. I wasn't the flaming atheist, but everything I thought about as it related to my life was absent of God or a god. School filled me up with Evolution which replaced Creation as fact in my life. There was also plenty of situational ethics and no absolutes. I lived a godless life without even thinking about it.
Slowly over time, I started considering the issues of God. I knew I had to make a decision in some way. I wanted God to prove Himself to me, but He wouldn't. You can't come to know God on your own terms but only on His. I took a leap of faith and believed. "Now will you show me, God?"
With "Pascal's Wager" in mind and beholding all the wonders of the world, I set out to allow God to confirm Himself to me. I found interesting tidbits such as the moon is exactly the right size and distance from the Earth to allow the Earth to sustain life. By chance? I don't think so. Shoot just believing that life came from nonlife takes more faith than to just believe in a Creator.
Getting to the point where it was becoming obvious that there is a God. How can we know who or what god is correct? An answer for another time.
Labels: apologetics, childhood, finding God, origins
I was at my most heavily religious in high School teens. "Heavy" as in that was the time I was the most mainstream in my bible reading beliefs. In my early twenties something happened that made me believe God had let me down. Looking back I know it was my inability to look beyond my own nose, but at the time I was just such a mess.
So I went from loving God to being angry with Him (We made our peace a long time ago),but I never could pull off not believing He existed.
For me knowing was never an issue, but my choice of "path" in worshipping/following Him was. My own feeling is that this is always deeply personal - between the person and God. IMO there is no one single path, there is God, and in Him anything is possible.